I did it. I finally sent my novel, Dreamers, to the printer.
Today, Tuesday, April 5th, 2011, at 12:44 PM. ( I couldn’t help looking at the time, embed it in my memory.) I felt like crying then and do now as I write this. Why? I’m happy, that’s why. It’s such a big deal.
Okay, it’s not the final-final, just the preview advance copy, and I’m printing only a few books to send to book reviewers to ask, to respectfully request, their endorsements to add to the final. “Advance Copy–Not for Sale” it reads on the back cover.
When I say I sent, I really mean “uploaded”; here in the electronic stratosphere of Northern California, I can send my brilliant blue cover file and my 374 page text file electronically to Kentucky where the printer does her magic. The printer’s a huge corporation, not a “she”, but hey, the Supreme Court ruled last year by 5-4 (Citizens United v. FEC ) that corporations are people with feelings and rights, so I think of my printer as a “she”.
So I sent my book to Kentucky with a click of my keyboard. But this techno-miracle is nothing to the miracle of Dreamers itself. I don’t want to talk too much about this as I’ll lose it here tonight, and have to stop writing here at the computer. Like with the cryingg – Look at that, I just misspelled a word. So what, you say? Spelling matters in the book world. It’s like dropping off a high wire if you’re a squirrel. It’s like this feat of Dreamers at the printer.
You see, Dreamers is a novel that took too long to write.
Yeah, that’s right. I started it in 1969 in New York where I was teaching 6th grade at a private school in the East Village. One weekend or another, I wrote a few pages in my studio walkup on West 96th Street. It wasn’t called Dreamers then. I don’t think it had a name but it had a trolley (remember trolleys?) that crashed into a brand new Impala during a snowstorm in Pittsburgh, PA the town where I was born. And that’s still the way the story begins, more or less.
I was twenty-four and dreaming of becoming a great female writer, a combination of Ernest Hemingway and William Faulkner, or maybe James Joyce and Tolstoy depending on who I was reading at the time. I have to add “female” because it didn’t escape me then or now that all my writing heroes were men.
This would be my second novel. My first, “Hobbyhorse”, was written in college, and I had 5 copies typed out on onionskin, one I had left on a toilet in an art gallery on Waikiki Beach.
A little later, I was reading the New York Sunday Times book reviews when I saw a small boxed notice of a winter Writer’s Workshop at the Provincetown Fine Arts Center on the tip of Cape Cod. Norman Mailer was one of the participant mentors. Reading that, I applied, sending in my few beginning pages in right away. Norman Mailer was shocking, prolific, a rebel, and a successful literary bad boy. I wanted to be part of whatever he was doing.
It’s still 1969. Come the 3rd of August and I’m in San Francisco now, having migrated out of New York on a romantic whim, when I get a telegram saying I’ve been accepted at the Provincetown Fine Arts Writing Workshop and what’s more, have been offered a full scholarship from the American Federation of the Arts to go there.
What a miracle! It’s out of this magic that Dreamers was seeded. I had an Alice-in-Wonderland kind of experience that winter in Provincetown and left the following spring with a seedling, half of a first draft. “Momma’s Old Clothes” was the title, after the dirty laundry that fell out of the Impala when the trolley crashed into it.
But oh, how long it took for that seed to bear fruit. I’m too exhausted to think about it. I need a rest after conjuring up these old stories. You can imagine how much more there is to tell. It’s too much for one night–how long it’s been, 42 years from then till now. I’ll write about it some another time. Tonight I’m going to watch an old movie and forget about it. But tomorrow I’ll be checking my email to see if the printer got the files and if they’re alright–as in, all right. Oh my god. What if it all disappeared? Oh, sure I have backups. That’s not what I meant. You get it, don’t you? Disappeared, as in dreams that are lost forever.
8 thoughts on “Dreamers is gone….to the Printer”
Shelley Buck says:
Hurray! Wonderful news.Congratulations, Margaret. The best writing takes a long time growing, and DREAMERS is proof of this. Thank you for sharing details of the long road to publication.
You’re welcome, Shelley. How many books I wrote and discarded to reach the Dreamers I have today! As I see it, the words I wrote when I first began this book are long buried and gone, but the soil is richer for them and the fruit is now ripe. Each mistake was necessary and good; each fork in the road took me on a new path, different from the one I thought I was on before.
Joel Friedlander says:
Congratulations, Margaret, it’s a long time coming but now you’ve done it. And the cover looks terrific! Best of luck with the book launch.
Your praise is really special to me, Joel, coming from a master bookman such as yourself. Thank you and also for reviewing an early draft. I did my best to follow your formatting suggestions to the letter
So excited to hear this is almost on it’s way to the public!
Yes, Jonas, like a turtle in the sand, my novel, Dreamers, is inching its way to the open sea of readership step by step by step. “Oh, readers, I’m coming as quickly I can,” says this turtle of mine.
Frannie (Pavone) says:
I remember your going to P-town that winter..I was so proud of you. I had a friend sitting & writting with Norman Mailer..Looking forward to reading “Dreamers’. We are going to the Jersey Shore in a few weeks..I couldn’t help but remember visiting you in Cape May. Hope we should see each other soon…dear friend.
Dear Frannie, I once danced around Norman Mailer at a late-night party in a P-town dive and we had an obnoxious exchange that I was really proud of at the time, but no, otherwise, I never sat and wrote with him or any of the luminaries in that renown workshop. I always wanted him–or anyone else–to read my work. I couldn’t believe they didn’t have the time for me. In fact, I was just another young literary groupie flitting around the famous men like a moth to the light.